W7: If I had a choice...

When I was a child, there was a stray dog that always stayed outside my house named Melon. I wasn't exactly the owner of the melon, although it stayed outside my house every day and night. I will give her food and a blanket and also play with her. Melon will sometimes disappear, and I won't be able to find her outside of my house, but I'm not worried about it because I can easily find her by walking around the neighbourhood or she will return on her own.

At that time I wished to have a dog and I kept begging my parents but they did not agree, saying that it was too dirty to have a dog and even if I had one, there was no extra space for it at home. I felt sad because I could only play with Melon to relieve my boredom everyday. One day, a loud bang startled me. I ran quickly to the outside to check what was going on, and I saw Melon fall into a pool of blood. The car who bang Melon had driven away. People were coming over to look; I was frozen, and it took me a while to come back to my soul when I got home, tears going down from my eyes one by one.

At that time I wished to have a dog and I kept begging my parents but they did not agree, saying that it was too dirty to have a dog and even if I had one, there was no extra space for it at home. I was disappointed because I could only play with Melon every day to pass the time. One day, a loud bang startled me. I ran quickly to the outside to check what was going on, and I saw Melon fall into a pool of blood. The car that hit Melon had fled. People were coming over to look, I was frozen... and it took me a while to come back to my soul when I got home, tears going down from my eyes one by one.

If I had a choice to choose to be Melon's owner, Melon would not have died. I couldn't forget the scene when its snowy white fur was red with blood. If I could go back in time, I would take Melon away from that dangerous place so that it could still wag its tail, run towards me, and happily eat its food now. I could play with Melon when I was bored, and it must be a very wonderful time. If I had the choice, I would beg my parents to let me keep Melon. Unfortunately, Melon was dead. The guy who killed Melon and ran away didn't come back to apologise. I really hope Melon will come back to me, no matter what.

Lastly, although this is off-topic, if I had a choice, I would hope my soul did not exist in this world. Do you believe in reincarnation? Every time I think about it, I just feel sad and tired. What if I am a human again in my next life? I have to do everything I've done before again and again. Not only being human is tiring, what if in my next life I am an animal? I think that being an animal is also very tiring. I always wonder how my soul can just disappear in this world so that I don't need to worry about so many things in my next or next next life.